love story

Actually I am not so sure what to write..but I have a lots in my mind. One of it;

Really miss bbdear..dont know when to see him and I am not ready to ask again..Shall I think just wait and see? What next, is out of my control. Of course I am not ready for any official separation =(..see, love him a lot….

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
without you there to see me through
I can’t imagine me without you

ok..today I just want to recall our moments, which currently we are almost 4 years in a r/ship.a lots of happiness, sad, regretting, stupid,funny memories.

The best thing is….i never in favour of him before, which for the first time I saw him I never thought ,even to be friend with him but I am not sure why I didn’t insist to reject him when we started to talk to each other. Ego perhaps..=) and even the day I accept him I am not in a serious mind set.just trying..

Then,suit my face…people say never hates somebody that u never know,it would be turn into something different!yes..it is!well, could not say this is a faith or whatever it named..but I believe something happens with reasons behind. Though I cannot ensure what are the end of our r/ship (means happily married or separate), still I try to stand strong for this unless there is a situation that force for a separation. Maybe at that time I will still in love with him?!!it’s all about feelings, no one can give total assurance u see.

Sighhh…don’t occupied your mind with this kind of things! shall you still love somebody, do your best for it! don’t be shy to be a bit possessive,jealous,bitchy perhaps ^-^….if you want him, learn how to tie him!yet the more you tie him the more he want to run from you… =)

People say..even it is not your faith to be together , especially end up with marriage, but if you have been there as somebody which was damn special..he would never forget you!so be somebody that unforgettable……

But in my own story, I am not dare enough to say..”i am ready to lost him”….just strong enough to keep quiet and move on.